Just Beneath The Surface...

No matter how HARD I try,
The Remnants...
Of My Breast Cancer Journey,
Remain...

Just...Beneath...The...Surface.

Lying...Dormant.

Waiting...

For the OPPORTUNITY,

To...Take...Me...Back!

To a Place...Far...Far...Away.

A Land...

Where the MEMORIES...

Of ALL I've ENDURED,

Are it's INHABITANTS.

A Place that REMINDS Me...

That although the BATTLE,

Has been WON...

There's still BLOOD,

Left on the BATTLEFIELD.

When you SURVIVE a Cancer Diagnosis,

You don't LEAVE...

UNSCATHED.

Memories are ALWAYS There.

The SCARS...

Gentle Reminders...

That Lord, " I know I've been CHANGED!"

I Don't, " DWELL" on what's happened.

But...

It's ALWAYS There...

Waiting...Just...Beneath...The...Surface.

When I'm HAPPY...It's Waiting.
When I STRUGGLE...It's Waiting.

Just...Beneath...The...Surface.

For the CHANCE...TO...

This wasn't part of MY Plan.
But, I've LEARNED...
( "Storms" are GREAT Teachers!)
This was PART of God's PLAN,
For My Life.

So...

FATHER...
(And, His Name will be called...)

YOUR WILL...
(Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God...)

NOT MY WILL...
(Everlasting Father, Prince Of Peace.)

BE DONE!

Until Next Time...

" Commit your way to the Lord, Trust in Him, And He shall bring it to pass."
Psalms 37:5

Enough...

My daughter "cringes" when I say,
"Breast Cancer...Was a BLESSING!"
The Treatment...Harsh!

I KNOW...

It will take MY LIFETIME...

To "HEAL"...
Emotionally.

But...YES!

It's been a BLESSING!

I've been FORCED, to LEARN,
Some "HARD" Lessons.

One Being...

LIFE...
Isn't about the Planning.

But, about the LIVING...
One Day,
One Step,
One Moment...
At a Time!

Cancer,
FORCES You.
To FACE,
The INEVITABILITY...Of Death...

HEAD ON!

And, IF you...

S-U-R-V-I-V-E...

You RECEIVE...God's BLESSING...

Of GRACE.

The "things"...Of this World,
That you THOUGHT Mattered.

Career...Wealth...Status...Possessions.

You LEARN...

Really...Don't...Hold...ANY...Value...

AT ALL!

Lesson Two,

I NO LONGER NEED...

The "fanciest" Car,
The most "prestigious" Job.

I...HAVE... LEARNED!

Just HAVING...

A Car,
A Job,

IS ENOUGH!

That's what Cancer..
.
Teaches YOU.

That just having...

The NECESSITIES...

Are ENOUGH!

Lesson Three...

The ONLY "things"...

I NEED...

IN ABUNDANCE...

GOD'S LOVE...
FAMILY...
FRIENDSHIP...

And, a LIFE...

Filled...With...JOY!

That Is,

ENOUGH...

FOR ME!

Until Next Time...

"Though you do not see Him, Yet Believing, you REJOICE with JOY Inexpressible"
1 Peter 1:8

Whole...Again!

When I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer,
In 2009...
MANY Things were TAKEN from me.

My Livelihood...
(I was UNABLE to work during Treatment!)

My Health...
(Chemotherapy took a toll on my body!)

My Self Image...
(The Lord GIVES...And, TAKES Away!)

But...What...
COULDN'T be TAKEN...
MY FAITH!

Facing such UNCERTAINTY...
ALL...I...HAD...WAS...GOD!

EASY?
NO!

Yet, I MADE it Through!

My Journey...
Taught me MANY Lessons...

Humility...Gratitude...Grace...
(Just to name a few!)

A RENEWED Belief...
That WITH God...
NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE!

We HUMANS...
Mere Mortals that we are.

USE that Phrase OFTEN!
Sounds Good, Right?

But, a WALK...
A Journey...
Such as MINE.

Made Those Words...

MY REALITY!

Almost FOUR Years Later...

And, STILL, "CANCER FREE"
(GLORY To God!)

ALL...That was TAKEN..
.
Has been RESTORED!

I have PERMANENT Implants,
I have an UNSHAKEABLE Faith!
I have WOMEN who SURROUND Me,
That have WALKED in my Shoes.

I'm READY...
For WHATEVER Life...
Sends my way!

I have GOD to THANK...
For this RENEWED...
AWAKENING.

WHY?
You Say...

Because HE...And, ONLY HE...

Made ME...WHOLE...AGAIN!

Until Next Time...

"We are the Clay, And You our Potter."
Isaiah 64:8